Dark Solitude

Dark Solitude

A crack in the sky
Lightning racing across the
horizon
Lights flickering
I grab my candles
Cutting off the electricity
and humming to myself
Earlier I demanded to be left
alone
and I got my wish at the
wrong time

I reach for my cell
my fingers dialing your
number
I get a recording and
hang up-
I left a message already today
I want you to hold me
Rock with me on the rug
back and fourth
Taking my mind off the
thunder claps

Soon the storm blows over
The rain merely a spritz
The phone chimes and I catch
the first ring
I needed to hear your voice
To tell you that our argument
was foolish
We could be making love in
twenty minutes
Feeling you inside of me would
make me forget the names you
called me
I would ask you to forgive me for
my own ugly words

A familiar voice on the other side;
it wasn’t you, but someone dear
told me to pour myself a drink
It was our friend Patti who hooked
us up
I started to babble about our stupid
fight
She told me to shut up and drink,
fighting back tears
Immediately I felt hollow inside
I didn’t want Patti to continue
Tuning her out best I could, only
the words swerve, accident, tree and a
weepy “I’m so sorry, Bella!”

I cut the lights off again,
lighting candles while I cry
Ignoring the phone and knocks at
the door
I don’t want others to hold me
To tell me that everything was going
to be alright
From you
I knew that it was true
From everyone else
it’s all just pleasant lies to ease a pain
I refuse to let heal

Allergic to Latex

Allergic to latex

I knew it was wrong
but it’s too late to turn
back
The sex wasn’t too
safe-
I’m trying to relax
I hope his eyes didn’t
lie
when he explained his
past
Clothes were coming off
We were moving way too
fast
My brain was pissed at my
vagina
How could she let rawness be
inside her
The passion was overflowing
My legs wrapped around his torso
not letting go
I didn’t want to think about
consequences
Drowning in the lust
Exploding when he bust
I know life isn’t about taking stupid
chances
as we lay together naked
legs intertwined
I’m searching for peace of
mind
What will happen to us
Do we continue to play with
fire
Get lost in desire
or
use common sense next time

The Jena Six

This is harrowing, disgusting yet real. Do something about it people!

A Trainwreck

A Trainwreck

i have naivite in my heart
but old enough to know better
from a magazine rack full of issues
down to words on tear stained letters
too lazy to change
i leave everything to fate
then start grasping at straws
as my world crumbles under the weight

of disaray

same old shit everyday
i try to explain myself to you
but i don't have the right things
to say
you look at me and see a diamond
in the rough
i look in the mirror-
can't stop wincing at the picture
and see a woman going through too much

stuff

and your compassion will never be enough
i throw pity parties and send mass invites
then wonder why people run out on me left
and right
a part of me hopes you'll never see the light
i don't want to lose you
so i throw emotional darts to confuse you
willfully exchanging sex for love
to mask the fact that i mentally abuse

you

yes, i'm afraid that is true
so now that you've seen my hand
ask yourself if this option is for you:
stick around for the sex
and hope that things will get better
knowing all about the issues
and the many tear stained letters

Drifting

fading away
not feeling like much
traveling with the
wind
mobility with a breeze's
touch
passing by others with
problems just trying to stay
sane
knowing i'd be a zombie
too if i had remain

This is a test from yet another phonezoo

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